I wrote this post a while ago but for one reason or another, every time I saw it, I felt uncomfortable. I wanted to share my story, but I kept postponing it every time. Today I finally did, and there’s a reason why I finally could.
This occurrence, I expected that with writing it “off” me I would feel better, that I would get rid of this incomprehension and be freed from it. The truth? I didn`t feel relieved at all after writing! Normally it always works, but this time it didn’t! If it`s inside it won`t get out as long as you don`t do something with it, especially when it concerns someone you really love and respect for a long time. I must have forgotten about that part. Normally letting go of something relieves me and frees me but this time something was different.
I never knew that doubt could bring so much pain and lots of sadness into wonderful friendships.
When people see things that aren’t there, try to convince them and at the same time try not to go along with their negativity, especially when it concerns people you love very much and care for very much. It “guzzles” all your positive energy before you even realize that, especially when you forget about yourself. It’s like being poisoned or having your beautiful moments being stolen from you and leaving only sadness and fear behind.
The day I felt better was the day I finally got a message from my friend telling me she really misses me a lot. I was glad that the feeling I had telling me to forgive her and not letting her go, was stronger than the feeling telling me to forget about her. I got the chance to face my friend and threw out what I had inside my heart contaminating my good thoughts. As strong as the respect and love I had for my friend was, as strong was the pain. It’s impossible to be prepared for the unexpected. After that day I felt free and happy again. We both did. Forgiveness was the key to my relieve. My friend regretted she ever doubted on me and I got remembered that forgiving can free you from the bad.
It`s hard to know that someone special, would doubt on anything a good friend has done and said before to that person. Sometimes people decide not to trust others in their lives. I think than they shouldn`t get too close to people in their lives `cause eventually they will be the ones hurting people that really care about them.
And why do this? Why create pain and sadness. Why invent things that aren’t there? Why not just face the reality and enjoy the moments together and enjoy life? What do they reach by letting their minds imagine things that are not there? Especially when there`s a lot of respect, when someone only wishes the best for one another and enjoy happy moments they are given together. Afterwards they realize that they also got hurt by their own actions and sometimes it might be too late. And is it worth it? Not at all!
Be careful with words you use and how you use them: Think before you speak! You could break ones heart if you don`t use your words wise. If you doubt on anything, be honest to others and communicate in a good way to avoid misunderstandings. Do this as soon as you doubt on something. Misunderstanding can brake wonderful things and bring sadness in ones life. And what will you gain at the end? Nothing! You`ll loose love, happiness, you`ll loose joy, respect and you`ll create pain and sorrow instead, while it wasn`t at all what you intended to do.
Enjoy all the beautiful things and wonderful people around you and don`t let negativity take control of you. People around you don`t deserve to get hurt and neither do you.
Believe in the smile you get from people around you. Remember and trust in the words they ever spoke to you. Don`t imagine a scenario that feels dark and uncomfortable when you can`t hear or understand what people say. The pain one gets when being hurt by someone they really respect and love is so intense, so sad and very painful.
No one allows people in their heart to be hurt and ending up in a situation where one has to explain the nonexistence, is unhealthy. So, don’t give doubt the chance to make you unhappy. Now you understand why I couldn’t post this before. This was a story that had to end with two happy hearts. I see it as a proof that you can over win your doubts as long as you keep believing.